Wild Horses

Wild Horses Couldn't Drag Me Away.

I remember thinking that once.

I woke up this morning, reflecting my life, on the drive to Khaley's school. Last year, exactly tonight at 2 am, my apartment burnt down. Well, my bedroom, but damaged everything in the house. Merry Christmas us. I had quit dealing then, working full-time cocktailing, and the night it caught fire, I was working cage. We ended up having a great Christmas, but stressful nonethless.

God, where does the run down of the rest of the year go. Josh and I broke up, then I found out I was having a miscarriage. Ugh. As heartbreaking as that was supposed to be, it was more painful and stressful having to deal with Josh. He moved back to Las Vegas, shortly after.

The day after Josh left, is when my life began to take it's downward decline. I can sum it up in one word.

Him.

I rearranged my entire life, lied, cheated, stole, hurt, cried, lost things that I will never begin to imagine how to get back.

One of life's great mysteries, goes unsolved. Why do people hurt the ones they love? Why do people love the ones that hurt them?

Are we all just living in a sadomassichistic love story?

Not anymore, she said, not for me.

I am so thankful that I have Chris. No more tears of pain, no more lies. I won't lose anything from here on out. i will only gain.

I feel like the old me. How nice it is to see you again, Meghan.

Friday is Monday?

Well, my Friday is always on Monday. Unless you count my Friday as a Friday because I have Saturday off, but that only happened recently, so I still consider everyone else's Monday as my Friday. I woke up Sunday morning sick as a dog, and it got worse today. Thank God, my wonderful Chris was here to take care of me. But he had to go back to Seattle today =( It sucks, I hate being away from him, especially now, that I have completely and truely figured out my way in life. He really is the best, I couldn't have gotten any luckier. He treats me like a princess and he is always there for me, whenever I need him. And thru all the things I have put him through, I'm suprised he even still speaks to me. But enough of that, I am SOOOOOOOO lucky to have him. I want to forget about the past and move towards the present.

So to add to another post I posted awhile ago, about pumpkins. I know that Thanksgiving is on Thursday, but I was on my way home tonight, (early because of my sickness) and I saw a fully lit Christmas tree in someone's living room. Ugh, the holidays are here, once again.

Medium is on NBC tonight in its 3-D version. Whoopideedoo, and it's hurting my eyes, because I DON'T have 3-D glasses. Off to read my book and fall graciously into a Theraflu induced sleep.

All These Things That I Have Done

Well, the truth is out. I have gone to confessional. I feel like a giant weight has been lifted off my chest. Life is going to go on. For us all. And for the better. All these things that I have done, are done and over with. I can only see the sun shining from here on out. Here's to the bright sunny days :)

Shit or Get off the Pot

I am in love. Head over Heels kinda love. I want this too last. I have been in love with him for some time, I just made a few mistakes. I'm done making mistakes. So it seems my title today fits-Shit or Get off the Pot. He is an amazing soul with an even bigger heart. I really don't deserve someone as wonderful as him, but he thinks I do, so we're going for it :) I hope this time it works. I am going to put in my effort to showing him how wonderful he is and how we are made for each other. I love you Chris!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!