Oh where art thou?

I know, I know, you are all probably wondering where the hell my crazy little ass has been, but don't be alarmed! I am back! Hahaha

Anyways, so many things have happened to me in the last few months, that I don't even know where to begin.

My Dad passed, as I posted, and it was probably one of the most gut wrenching experiences that has ever happened to me. I have never lost ANYONE close to me, let alone, my own father. I moved in with my (step)mom (She's my REAL mom, even though she may not have given birth to me, she has always been my mom) and my sister. I lived there up until about a month ago and then I moved in with my friend's KC and Bruce, probably based on the fact that I was always here. I mean, always.

I started college. Mostly impart to my Dad. Not that it was his dying wish for me, but we had got into quite a few discussions regarding my furthering my education. A lot of credit to Steve, who pushed me everytime we talked. They both had faith in me to go, so I go. I bit off a little bit more than I could chew, but I'm enjoying it. I'm taking English 101, Sociology, and Religion in America. And it seems I am always doing homework. I just got done with one class and have to go on to another after I finish this post.

Work is um, weird. I have to work with Steve and Chris, whom I have now broken up with. He and I worked out well for awhile, but I hate feeling smothered and I felt smothered. By both of them. And Steve was just my friend. I still care about both of them very much, but even if I had time for either one of them, I wouldn't be very good at the whole relationship thing, just because I am so busy. School, Work, School, Some more School, and then Work, oh and did I mention School?

Khaley is in Chicago with her grandparents. I miss her so much and hate being away from her everyday, but I talk to her everyday. It's still not the same. I will be going to Chicago to visit here soon and then probably moving there after summer quarter. Who knows.

I wish I knew what direction my life was going. I wish I knew where I will end up. Sometimes the story is fun and depressing, but I cheat sometimes and read the last page