Where do your run when what your running from is yourself?

I've probably already said that somewhere I'm sure.

But it's a real question, that I need real answers too.

Is it better to go thru life doing what you think is best? Or do you follow your heart? Are you supposed to do what everyone thinks is "the good idea" while being untrue to your heart? I am living my life day in and day out not being honest about what I really want.

But I could never admit that its him I really want. No one would understand that. Everyone would hate me. Everyone would laugh at me.

But he's who I feel in my heart.

As much as I have tried to deny it, it just doesn't go away. I try to move on. I try to make myself believe that it's over. But it's not over for me.

And I don't know what the hell to do.